trying (尝试) changshi - causing strain, hardship, or distress. upsetting, difficult, or annoying.
life is too short to stress yourself with people who don't even deserve to be an issue in your life. so true the saying but really... can you do it?
i think i am at a difficult stage of my life. the older you get, the harder and less courage you have to face the hardships in life and hence it's just tougher. now...my problems are many - financial, guy, social outcast, etc.
i feel horrible actually. i feel like everyone is pointing their evil fingers at me. but what did i do wrong?
recently, i stumble upon this website - Succeed Socially.com and the writer of the site has definitely helped me to understand many things. Like I am actually lonely (寂寞) ji mo...the state of "feeling lonely," describes a human state or feeling involving isolation, or the feeling of disconnection with others, etc. Often accompanied by a sense of yearning for connection and as well as what I have been doing wrong. Things that I thought I knew was not how it is.
I think partly cos of financial that I have a low self esteem at this point of time. Sad to think that at this low point of my life, people that you thought would be there, don't really give a shit about you. disappointed again....
I need happy thoughts...many many happy thoughts. Please GOD, if you are up there listening to me...let me have the strength to go through this emotionally and mentally.
