inevitable.reality

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest , if you must, but don't you quit.
*Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow -
You may succeed with another blow.
*Success is failure turned inside out -
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit!

PS: oh i will try harder with two of my fave eye candies supporting me! hahahaha!

silence (沉默) chen mo (침묵) chimmug - absence of any sound or noise; stillness; the state of being forgotten.

lately i have been dreading the fact that the house is pretty quiet. the little white furball is at the dad's place for the whole week. don't know why but i just feel like i needed some time off from thinking or worrying about anything at all. i miss her much though.

i do go out everyday for work (stress....things are pretty much hanging by a thread for me now and it's frustrating) but during the evenings when i come back, the house greets me with silence. i feel empty. my friend did say go out and have a drink or two but as much as i hate the emptiness and silence, i just ended up staying in.

this weekend will be very quiet. a bunch of friends went to shanghai and then another set of people went to kenyir which we were suppose to follow but honestly money is a factor. how sad....at this age. i suck!

but i got jaychou concert tickets! wooohoooo....

sensitive (敏感) ming gan - in this case it is easily pained, annoyed, etc.

my best friend have changed so much... i just realize it recently. i love her to pieces still but ... seriously it's pretty tiring talking to her i would say.

the past year, many things have happen and i won't say it's a good year. so of cos, i told her but to my surprise instead of understanding she actually kinda think i brought it to myself.

my social life especially have taken a hit. she told me that i have the tendency to say things outright or to say sarcastic things as i don't have much patience for a lot of things. well...yah no one likes to be told that they are bitches but yes i am a bitch.

thing is, now that the subject is out of the bag, it's like a death sentence. everytime...well not everytime but a lot of time when i go to her for some aunt agony advice, she would pinpoint that it's my fault that things get out of hand. sure, sometimes it's me but just cos i have a habit of being forthright doesn't mean it's me all the time.

in fact, i find it strenuous to talk to her nowadays. it's skirting on thin ice. it's like whatever i say it's not good enough for her ears.

siens!