inevitable.reality

"who are you to judge me? you have not lived my life, you have not been put under the same situations that have made me the person I am. So next time you point fingers, recognize i how i lift my middle one up and scream fuck you."

karma is something someone made up to make themselves feel better. to believe that because someone wronged you the universe will turn against them.

because sometimes people do actually feel that way. sometimes your life feels like its caving in on you. sometimes people really do feel like they don't want to exist, like they want to just curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death. saying "i don't want to exist" isn't saying "i want to go die". its saying "i wish that, for the time being, i could go somewhere and not have to feel". i don't think there's anything wrong with that. and if you don't know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.

i’ve been messed with, let down, and played too many times. i wonder what people think of me too much, and I’m way too judgmental. my heart is big but I have my selfish moments. i love to be in big groups, but i love to be alone. every song on my iPod has a special memory or a regret behind it. i don't like going through old pictures because I miss what used to be. i tend to over think things and i trust way too many people. i have the people i’d love to pack up and leave with, and there are some people i wish would just disappear. i don't cry very often, but when i do i can't stop. i hate the word goodbye and i wish it didn't exist. i hate liars, though i lie myself. i have secrets hidden in me that even i don't know. i’m still finding things out about myself, so don't be quick to judge.

if anyone tells you that you can’t achieve your dreams, or puts you down, make your hand into a claw and tell them you’re a little monster and you can do whatever the fuck you want. - Lady Gaga

you should never give yourself a chance to fall apart. because when you do, it becomes a tendency and it happens over and over again. you must practice staying strong instead - eat, pray, love

life is too ironic to fully understand. it takes sadness to know what happiness is. noise to appreciate silence. and absence to value presence.

sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people. if they care, they’ll notice. if they don’t, you know where you stand.

i’m a hopeless romantic. i believe in wishing on stars, soul mates, and love that never ends. But yet, sometimes i feel like the only single person alive. i feel so alone. no matter what i try to do, i’m left in solitude. maybe i try too hard. maybe i really am hopeless.

relationships always sounded so physically painful: you fell in love, you broke a heart, you lost your head. was it any wonder that people came through the experience with battle scars? - The Tenth Circle by Jodi Picolt

do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? you don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. but at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. if you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. people have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. at least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'i don't know' for an answer. you feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait..

i don't know why we all hang on to something we know we're better of letting go. it's like we're scared to lose what we don't really have. some of us say we'd rather have that then nothing at all, but the truth is; to have it half way is harder then not having it all.

if i've learned one thing all my life, it's that the people who can't love you for who you are, don't deserve to ever love you at all.

you become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed. - from The Little Prince

i don't know. it's like, there's this person that you want to be for other people. to make them proud of you. and then there's you. and sometimes it's hard to tell where one ends and the other begins.

i just wonder how many people never get the one they want, but end up with the one they're supposed to have.

am i the reason people always leave? am i the reason all these things keep happening to me? maybe i’m just destined to be alone.

It's getting so hard to be around you. Because every time I see you, I see a stranger. You've changed, and I just miss the person you used to be. The one that cared, the one that wouldn't ever hurt me, not if they could help it. But now, now all you care about is yourself. Maybe you never did care in the first place, I'm not sure. All I know is the person I care about so much is no longer there. Nothing is left of you. Everything has changed, and I miss the person you used to be.

"I'm not going to spend my life chasing people. You wanna leave? Fine then, go ahead. 'Cause I'm done with chasing and caring for people who never had interest in me. Nothing lasts and people change. I've learned love is hard and life is strange.”

you know, people are always asking me, "are you okay?" but they're never really expecting the truth. because the reality of the matter is, if i was okay- you wouldn't really have to wonder.