new 新 (xin) 새 (sae): newly beginning or recurring; starting anew; now commencing; different from has been; as, a new year; a new course or direction.
today is the last day of 2010. there are many ups and downs in one's life and i believe at this point of time, that this year could be one of the worse year of my life. a time of my life when i am constantly in a crossroad, constantly hurting, constantly disappointed and most of all emotional drained.
In 2010, I learn that:
1. even after 10 over years, your friends can still be immature
2. the people whom you thought are the people you can turn to might not be the case
3. being overly passionate about something might not be a good thing
4. people have less tolerance level once they are older
5. people pick on your faults but they are blind to their own
6. to keep my brutal opinion to myself and only say the things they want to hear
7. to say I am fine and mean it even if I am not
8. to be my own company
9. being poor with commitments is tough with capital T
10.the law of attraction don't really work
11.breaking up would be the best thing except that i am scared to be alone
12.facebook is a depressing tool
13.to be tough emotionally
14.to depend on myself and no one else
15.being a PR slut is exhausting
16.i am an angry at the person i have become
17.to cry silently
18.that i am ashamed of what i have become
19.that i am depressed and suicidal
20.that i have became the one thing i am most afraid of - a lost lonely soul
many more actually because i feel that 2010 is really a tough year for me. one of the few things in 2010 that made it great was my dog. she is a joy to have around and made those lonely times bearable.
