it has happen again. this time, it hurts even more. to go over it again, its really heart wrenching. the same people with the same intention who will never know how much they have broken some because frankly they don't care. the same people who drove me to the brink of the edge. the same people who almost made me jump, just that one step to stopping the hurt.
i told myself more than a million times that i should not care. that no one is perfect. that it is not me because i did my best. that friends do not do this to their own friends. that friends do not push their friend to the ground and step on them. but it does not work.
because here i am feeling the immense hurt. struggling to find a grip but drowning and gasping for air. i feel as if maybe jumping off the edge is a good idea. that maybe just maybe it will end this empty feeling, the burning feeling, this hurt i feel every time they do this. because every time it kills me a little and little, soon i will be no more.
i wonder how long can i hold on for....someone please help me.
i told myself more than a million times that i should not care. that no one is perfect. that it is not me because i did my best. that friends do not do this to their own friends. that friends do not push their friend to the ground and step on them. but it does not work.
because here i am feeling the immense hurt. struggling to find a grip but drowning and gasping for air. i feel as if maybe jumping off the edge is a good idea. that maybe just maybe it will end this empty feeling, the burning feeling, this hurt i feel every time they do this. because every time it kills me a little and little, soon i will be no more.
i wonder how long can i hold on for....someone please help me.
