change: a passing from one phase to another
today started out good as i went out for work and i did get things done although a bit distracted here and there. th en i went home after work and maybe because lately due to the empty feeling i have, i hate my home. my white little rascal makes it so much easier to go home.
i kept thinking maybe just maybe i should settle. that i still want to hold on. i panicked when he said he can't go on the holiday with me. i am already having some personal struggle with certain people who is going on the holiday too and me being me, i cling. but after a while and my mind digest the whole thing, in fact i am looking forward to him not being there as well. me just being able to have fun. i am losing him because i am slowly but surely letting him go.
i know deep inside that i want to let go but i am clinging on because i am scared of changes. now i do hope that he is not gonna be going as well so i can just be me without the facade. perhaps it is for the best.
today started out good as i went out for work and i did get things done although a bit distracted here and there. th en i went home after work and maybe because lately due to the empty feeling i have, i hate my home. my white little rascal makes it so much easier to go home.
i kept thinking maybe just maybe i should settle. that i still want to hold on. i panicked when he said he can't go on the holiday with me. i am already having some personal struggle with certain people who is going on the holiday too and me being me, i cling. but after a while and my mind digest the whole thing, in fact i am looking forward to him not being there as well. me just being able to have fun. i am losing him because i am slowly but surely letting him go.
i know deep inside that i want to let go but i am clinging on because i am scared of changes. now i do hope that he is not gonna be going as well so i can just be me without the facade. perhaps it is for the best.
