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love 爱 - "Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own." --Robert Heinlein
"In real love you want the other person's good. In romantic love you want the other person."
--Margaret Anderson
"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies."
--Aristotle
"In my wildest dreams, you always play the hero. In my darkest hour of night, you rescue me, you save my life."
--Bliss and Cerney
"Take away love, and our earth is a tomb."
--Robert Browning
"I love you, not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you."
--Roy Croft
"You're nothing short of my everything."
--Ralph Block
"I love her and that's the beginning of everything."
--F. Scott Fitzgerald
"Two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one."
--John Keats
"I miss you even more than I could have believed; and I was prepared to miss you a good deal."
--Vita Sackville-West
"Within you I lose myself. Without you I find myself wanting to become lost again."
--Unknown
"When a heart finds another, what's a cloud more or less in the sky?"
--Wolf and Page
"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."
--Sam Keen
"Love doesn't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile."
--Elizabeth Browning
weibo 围脖 - chinese version of twitter
recently i got myself a chinese twitter account called weibo. it is very popular with many asian artistes and i am following like a number of them. however after a while it's is pretty tiring and tedious because in order to know what they are tweeting about, i would need to copy and paste onto the google translator and then click submit. after that, if everything goes well i would get the whole idea but sometimes the words are jumble up and i would need to decipher it.
otherwise, it does help me to improve my chinese a lot seeing i pretty much want to take a shot at taiwan. gotta start posting more in chinese here too.
here is my WEIBO
indifferent: that does not matter one way or the other; of no importance or value one way or the other
i am indifferent today even though it's a friday. but then again, i don't need friday for the weekend to come. another boring day which in fact, i should be doing my work but as usual sigh... i am procrastinating and it ain't good. my moolahs is getting really low. but then again, it being a friday, i would want not to spend it at home doing nothing...please let me have some plans.
alcohol: intoxication that will make you lose yourself
i was confuse with myself and contradicting myself too. i want yet i don't want. anyway, we kissed although we are suppose to be cooling off. i think it's the alcohol's fault. yes i shall blame it on the alcohol.
dream: an aspiration; goal; aim
i am crazy over this drama serial called down with love and especially crazy over the guy. crazy to the extent of wanting to go over to taiwan and chase my dream (not the guy as it would be impossible). not to say it would be a better life there, in fact i might be lonely there but i might enjoy it there, who knows. but i know for sure, i want what they have in the drama. i want a xiang yu ping and am going to go for it unless otherwise.
lately been surfing this forum and you would be surprise how many people actually lurks around there. i am there especially since i am an addict of the couple from down with love. even during normal time like promotional and non-promotional time, these two are still playing footsie, handsie, tickling, poking, touching, and many more. seriously, they are so sweet and everyone on this thread in this forum that i go to is so into them getting together and always spazz about them. i am more than happy to just take a seat back and read with the occasional comment here and there. but seriously, these two got super hot chemistry and i have not been crazy over a couple in a serial before. 
a girlfriend of mine and i have planned, when we get enough money...we will go over to taiwan to be a crazy fan and chase some stars for fun. i think we can still pass as 20s.
happy: characterized by or indicative of pleasure, contentment, or joy
think this song might be best to describe at the moment: Happy by Leona Lewis
someone once told me
that you have to choose
what you win or lose
you cant have everything
dont you take chances
you might feel the pain
dont you love in vain
cause love wont set you free
i could stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
so unhappy but safe as could be
CHORUS
so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy, yea
just wanna be happy, yea
holding on tightly
just cant let it go
just tryna play my roll
slowly diasappear, oooh
well all these tears
they feel like theyre the same
just different faces, different names
get me outta here
well i can stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
pass me by
CHORUS
so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy
oooh
so any turns that i cant see
ill count a stranger on this road
but don’t say victim
dont say anythng
CHORUS
so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about all the pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy
dating: a form of courtship, and may include any social activity undertaken by, typically, two persons with the aim of each assessing the other's suitability as a partner in an intimate relationship or as a spouse
i have a date tonight with a guy. well, actually it's my guy if i can still call him my guy. but in fact, it's just dinner.
anyway, i better buck up on work. money needs to pour in or else i am doomed soon.
change: a passing from one phase to another
today started out good as i went out for work and i did get things done although a bit distracted here and there. th en i went home after work and maybe because lately due to the empty feeling i have, i hate my home. my white little rascal makes it so much easier to go home.
i kept thinking maybe just maybe i should settle. that i still want to hold on. i panicked when he said he can't go on the holiday with me. i am already having some personal struggle with certain people who is going on the holiday too and me being me, i cling. but after a while and my mind digest the whole thing, in fact i am looking forward to him not being there as well. me just being able to have fun. i am losing him because i am slowly but surely letting him go.
i know deep inside that i want to let go but i am clinging on because i am scared of changes. now i do hope that he is not gonna be going as well so i can just be me without the facade. perhaps it is for the best.
habit: an acquired behavior pattern regularly followed until it has become almost involuntary
i love him but yet i am not in love with him. i am scared to be without him but yet i don't want him in my life. i want to be just me but yet i can't let go of him.
everytime i think of all the times we have together or all the things we have gone through, i just want to ask him to hold me in his arms. but i also know that it will be a different feeling for i want more and i don't know if he can give me more.
i am not being fair to him. i am hurting him but yet if i am not selfish, i will hurt me. i don't want that feeling of emptiness.
we have become a habit...
Used to us promising each other Be there or be square
Used to looking for the other when we open our eyes
But habits make us sluggish
No longer strong enough
To defend against loneliness
Used to the two of us sleeping in a single bed
Then we can sleep soundly till daybreak
If you leave
What can I do with my hands all tied up?
But most of all,
Used to the Happily-after
How do I get used to having my other half empty again
pS: it's a bit weird cos it's translated from a chinese song called 習慣兩個人
empty: containing nothing
i feel empty and as if i am acting on autopilot. i don't know how long i can walk like this. it feels like i am falling, falling into an endlessly black pit. someone help me...or is it only i can help myself.
loneliness: a feeling in which people experience a strong sense of emptiness and solitude.
actually i am a princess behind all my fierce facade, wanting to get approval and wanting to be loved by everyone. i am insecure. whatever shit people give, i pretend to i don't take shit. but in the end i just swallow it because i am afraid, i am afraid that if i don't take it all in, i will be the only one sitting there.
fear is a strong feeling, loneliness is even worse...it doesn't kill you, it eats you alive slowly but surely.
some have said that i am hateful. if i am such a hateful person, then why let me have a conscience? why not let me be a bitch through and through...it would be much easier then. either you love me or you hate me. but no, i hate but i want to be loved.
so perhaps i have reached a stage where i don't want to pretend no more. i just want to be me.
